and i'm back. perhaps for good sake.

Assalamualaikum. Hi all.

Its 11-1-11,
and its time to write something.
But before that,

please allow me to say these 3 words first:

I AM SORRY.

T_T

It had been more than 4 weeks since melodramaticity was kept to rest in peace. since then, many things happen. being through ups and down of life, good and bad dealing of feeling, especially along the end of the year, was not just as easy as people may see and think. You just dont know if you never be in one's shoes.

Exam was over. Thank God i finally managed to finish all the papers though with a weak bod, unwell state of mind, and longing soul. God gave me that situation, just to test my strength, and how far i relate things with faith. God never lay allegation to His slave, unless they are meant and strong enough to face it. That is what i always keep in mind, cuz i know God always loves His creation, and only Him knows what best for them, for us.

Some issues arose. Along the silence path, i learned a lot. i learned about life. too hard to mention, yet it gave a real meaning. Decision making - was not as easy as we learn in school. Heart dealing - was always hard, even if yours is as soft-and-fragile as mine. This time around, it really left me with a big yet beautiful scar, which will be brought as the future reference. (confused? its okay, just left it here. =.=")

Towards the end, i managed to 'escape'. Yeah. i realized. sometimes, all you need to do is to get out of your comfort zone, try to see the other perspective of the world, in your way to find the real you and fulfilling the need of your soul. Finding a quality time with the people you love, may release you from, at least, some kind of hard situation, though others' feeling might be sacrificed. There's many significant different whether to be too cared or to not be cared at all.

And the final came. everyone was waiting for it. saying goodbye to one thing just to say hello to another unknown thing. but yeah. i also wonder where's the good thing in saying goodbye? another thing discovered here. i have started to hate 'goodbye', long before i notice this. *sigh*. So, life must go on. for whatever happens in your future day, bring your knowledge and experiences with you, if its bad - make it a real lesson, and if its good, bring it on, and try to develop to a better one. we just dont know what might be faced soon. so, just get ourselves prepared. as far as my brain can reach, this is just all i wanted to mumble. -___-

You show me love, you teach me life, and going through every single experience within. 2010, i'll keep you safely deep inside and 2011, i'll face the new you, with the new 'me'. Thank you everyone.