A story of December. ^^

I'm not that good in storytelling. honestly. -___-"

So, i just caught up with something like this - the one featured below.

Its just too interesting to tell.

Go through it, then you'll know the story. :)

 

 

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier then ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to december, turn around and make it alright and

I go back to december all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side,

Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to december all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night,

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to december

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and

I go back to december, turn around and make it alright and

I go back to december, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to december all the time

Reminiscing the fond memories is just another good therapy. Draw a smile of happiness, shed a tear of thankfulness, spread the unseen-feeling of love.

Trivia :

Taylor Swift, do we just got the same story?

Thanks for 'representing' me to tell this.

September to december ~ let them remain in the memory.

Entry a.k.a Hadiah Paling Merendah Diri untuk Si Birthday Girl :)

Okay, sekarang, 16 januari. rasanya belum terlambat lagi nak buat satu dedication khas untuk si birthday girl yang birthdate-nya semalam. yelah, kalau waktu 15 januari 1990 aritu, beby ni baru je berapa jam lahir..mak ayah pun tak sempat lagi nak pikir nak letak nama apa..apetah lagi nak pegi daftar nama untuk buat surat beranak. kan? kan? hee ;) so, kira awal lagi lah kalau nak wish selamat beranak eh, happy birthday untuk si beby (beby? eww eww) januari ni. haha :D

Tudia beby eww eww januari kita. Peace ! ^_^v

Nak tau dia ni sapa? .....

Mak aku: Dari mana?

A: Kajang..

Aku:.....(diam)

Mak aku: skolah mana dulu?

A: skolah ____ kat kajang jugak.

Aku:.....(diam lagi)

Mak aku: sebelum ni blaja kat mana?

A: matrik negeri 9..

Aku: laaa yeke? nape tak penah nampak eh?

A: ehe..(sengih2 je)

sengal kan? -____-"

Isk. memang. itu la dialog awal2 yang terjadi time mula2 masuk bilik yang sama masa mula daftar masuk U dulu...dan, dia nilah, aku punya ex-matrikmate(ade ke istilah ni? =.="), roomate, housemate (ofcoz lah), classmate, bowlingmate, dan dan soulmate eh, bestmate. ^^

budak gila camera =P

*lepas ni jangan kau guna camera tu lagi. *nada tegas.

Okey. Dia ni jugak, selain fanatic bola, bowling, dan badminton, sama macam aku, dia suka camera. kalau zaman sekarang, orang tengah gilakan DSLR. ha dia pun camtu gak. sama macam aku. yelahh kitorang kan orang zaman sekarang~ *nada belagak. sila luku kepala. =.=" so dia ni lah yang rajin meneman aku gaduh pasal bola, sorak badminton sama2 kat kafe kolej, bersaing secara sehat dalam sukan bowling (ayaaattt~ HAHAHA) dan sembang gaya photographer bertauliah pasal camera. *auta betul. =.="

Aaa lepas tu lepas tu, dia ni la kawan-yang-aku-bukan-first-time-jumpa, yang fanatik kat certain2 colour je. Purple - her favourite colour. and, dia suka POOH. alaa binatang apa tah yang kaler kuning tu? bear eh? haa yelah kot. (tapi pooh bukan purple, nape dia suka pun aku taktau -__-) almost semua barang2 dia kat bilik tu berunsurkan pooh. itu termasuk, cadar, sarung bantal, bantal, bantal peluk, plush bear pooh itu sendiri, purse, bekas pensel dan dan okeh itu aje kot. nasib baik tak sampai nak menggugat nyawa aku lagi. kalau takkk...emm its okay. fuhh. aku tak benci pun pooh tu. saje je provoke. ada gaya nak cari gaduh tak? cuak tak? ngehehe. ^_^v

pemberi **wish bersama penerima **wish. sama comel, suka lollipop.

**wish kat sini adalah ucapan, bukan kereta toyota wish tu ye. sekian. =P

Dia, Norazliana Mohd Zin a.k.a A'are (sama nick dgn kazen lelaki i, u know. tekejut sikit masa 1st time dgr. hehe) the so-called beby januari. Happy Birthday, a'are ! aku mmg tak caye pun kau dah 21. alah, tapi..apelah sangat dgn nombor tuuu...ye tak? hehe. kalau paen tak mampu datangkan Faizal Tahir untuk kau, aku pulak tak mampu nak datangkan kau encik Nikon idaman hati kau tu. maaplah ye...T_T whatever it is, may Allah bless u, dear. best of luck in whatever u do. friend for eva. lebiu ! ^__^ <3

p/s: dan hadiahnya...jengjengjeng...tunggu aku 'ada' duit yer. janji. T_T

and i'm back. perhaps for good sake.

Assalamualaikum. Hi all.

Its 11-1-11,
and its time to write something.
But before that,

please allow me to say these 3 words first:

I AM SORRY.

T_T

It had been more than 4 weeks since melodramaticity was kept to rest in peace. since then, many things happen. being through ups and down of life, good and bad dealing of feeling, especially along the end of the year, was not just as easy as people may see and think. You just dont know if you never be in one's shoes.

Exam was over. Thank God i finally managed to finish all the papers though with a weak bod, unwell state of mind, and longing soul. God gave me that situation, just to test my strength, and how far i relate things with faith. God never lay allegation to His slave, unless they are meant and strong enough to face it. That is what i always keep in mind, cuz i know God always loves His creation, and only Him knows what best for them, for us.

Some issues arose. Along the silence path, i learned a lot. i learned about life. too hard to mention, yet it gave a real meaning. Decision making - was not as easy as we learn in school. Heart dealing - was always hard, even if yours is as soft-and-fragile as mine. This time around, it really left me with a big yet beautiful scar, which will be brought as the future reference. (confused? its okay, just left it here. =.=") 

Towards the end, i managed to 'escape'. Yeah. i realized. sometimes, all you need to do is to get out of your comfort zone, try to see the other perspective of the world, in your way to find the real you and fulfilling the need of your soul. Finding a quality time with the people you love, may release you from, at least, some kind of hard situation, though others' feeling might be sacrificed. There's many significant different whether to be too cared or to not be cared at all.

And the final came. everyone was waiting for it. saying goodbye to one thing just to say hello to another unknown thing. but yeah. i also wonder where's the good thing in saying goodbye? another thing discovered here. i have started to hate 'goodbye', long before i notice this. *sigh*. So, life must go on. for whatever happens in your future day, bring your knowledge and experiences with you, if its bad - make it a real lesson, and if its good, bring it on, and try to develop to a better one. we just dont know what might be faced soon. so, just get ourselves prepared. as far as my brain can reach, this is just all i wanted to mumble. -___-

You show me love, you teach me life, and going through every single experience within. 2010, i'll keep you safely deep inside and 2011, i'll face the new you, with the new 'me'. Thank you everyone.

Never regret your past, everything has happened for your best. Learn from it and move on!

<3

Rest.In.Peace.

dengan ini mengisytiharkan bahawa...

exam dah start !

*sungguh aku sendiri tak pecaya. T__T

Kesian kat diri sendiri dan kawan seangkatan,

waktu orang lain dah hip hip hooray

bercuti cuti melesia kat umah,

kitorang baru nak start exam.

dan ia akan berakhir 2 minggu dari skrg ye. sekian.

adehh. -___-"

kali ni, rase cuak telebih lebih.

kenape taktau.

emm, kawan kawan, sorry tau if anything wrong.

cekgu cekgu, pensyarah,

saye doa, anda anda semua lembut hati

berkati ilmu yang diajar tu ye

walaupun saye kadang2 x serius dlm kelas T__T

mom and dad,

i know your prayer for me never stop.

zillions thanks.

Allah,

guide us. ease us.

please let the strength be by my side

along the way to succeed.

semoga blog owner ini dan kawankawan beliau berjaya menjawab exam dengan cemerlang, ya Allah.

Amiiin~

*thanks readers sebab aminkan doa ni. Allah selamatkan kamu =)*

Trivia:

facebook activity: depends. but wont deactivate.

blogging activity: also depends.

but as wished, i may let melodramaticity to RIP for awhile.

rest okay, baby? kakak will come back soon.

just pray for me.

=')

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